I want to go home,
but home is the mouth of a shark
home is the barrel of the gun
and no one would leave home
unless home chased you to the shore
unless home told you
to quicken your legs
leave your clothes behind
crawl through the desert
wade through the oceans
no one leaves home
until home is a sweaty
voice in your ear
LEAVE. I CANT SAVE YOU.
why do you look so sad?
I live with the fact that
I could’ve been the son
my parents never had.
where historical role models were a man who wrote songs and poems
and women who fought with a gun and lead freedom fighters.
Your gender roles mean nothing to me
I was a student, once2016-05-10
I was a student, once.
I graduated from a prestigious university and shook hands with its founder when I received my diploma.
Now my hands grasp at othersâ€™ unwanted clothes.
I was a teacher, before.
I taught English to Syriaâ€™s brightest and used up the electricity marking books late into the night.
Now strangers speak to me slowly, like a baby, asking â€œDoâ€¦youâ€¦understand?â€
I was a woman, long ago.
I wore make up, I went shopping with friends in Damascus.
I brushed my black hair before a dressing table mirror.
Now I wash with wet wipes.
& queue to use portable toilets filled hourly by thousands of ill and unwashed strangers.
I was a wife.
Ahmad brought me bracelets from the market on his way home from work.
He got grumpy when I woke him in the morning but smiled when he heard me singing.
He hugged our children,
And kissed me before he left, as he always does.
As he always did.
Now I tell my name to the English girl before me and shake my head when she asks for my husbandâ€™s.
She nods and tries to look understanding. But what can she understand?
This girl, barely more than a teenager,
Never having known war, never having loved, never having had to run from chaos to strife, never having lost?
What can she know?
But then I remember, and I forgive.
For I was her, once.
It has ended for me
and began again in the morning.
It’s like this2016-02-28
by people who look just like you.
my grandparents were alive for our Independence Day.
and you say: â€œthe past is the past, forgive and forget.â€
and you say: â€œ9/11: never forget.â€
and then shame you for trying to escape their disaster.
This is how to oppress.
Wassup?! Idag Ã¤r det onsdag och jag har spenderat mÃ¥ndag och tisdag med att gÃ¶ra absolut ingenting. Det var sÃ¥ jÃ¤kla skÃ¶nt dÃ¥ jag hade jobb frÃ¥n 5-11 idag och kommer att ha det hela veckan ut. FÃ¶rsÃ¶ker fÃ¥ in det sista av psykologin Ã¤ven om tentan Ã¤r om en mÃ¥nad (hej sÃ¤ger little miss klar i fÃ¶rvÃ¤g). FÃ¶rsÃ¶ker fortfarande enas med mig sjÃ¤lv om vad jag ska unna mig sjÃ¤lv nÃ¤r jag fÃ¥r min fetelÃ¶n. Ã…h vill ha sÃ¥ mycket men ska spara till kÃ¶rkortet det hÃ¤r Ã¥ret, det var EN av mina mÃ¥nga lÃ¶ften haha!
Hoppas ni alla hade en bra onsdag och kan sova gott inatt. Jag ska stÃ¤nga shoppen imorgon sÃ¥ kommer ej vara sÃ¥ aktiv dÃ¥ heller men Ã¤eh, ibland behÃ¶vs man Ã¥t andra hÃ¥ll :p Annars var jag precis pÃ¥ Maxi och hÃ¤mtade ut mitt nya BATTERIGREPP! Ska visa er bilder och allt snarast, love â¥
//T R A N S L A T I O N; Wassup?! Today it’s Wednesday and I spent my Monday & Tuesday doing absolutely NOTHING. I really needed that trust me. I got ill last week and it was so hard to get well with work all days + uni, so it wasn’t more than right to get a ittybitty break in between :â† Trying to get the last of psychology in my head as well for my exam in March and figuring out if I should buy myself a birthdaygift or not. And IF yes, then a lightbox orrrrr….. a new dress from Yourdesignerwear?! I want so much but promised myself to save up for my driving licence (IA) buhu.
I hope you all had a good day! I have work tomorrow as well and I’m closing the shop again & again, so I won’t be active here rest of the week. Other than that I was just on our local post office and grabbed my new BATTERYGRIP!! Ohmygod, so happy and I can’t wait to show you guys pictures of it! Love â¥
Then woe to those whose hearts are hardened against
the remembrance of Allah.
but what fool said you had to do it silently?
Here’s a tip—scream.
Glory to Allah2015-12-24
Hej! IgÃ¥r satt jag och kom pÃ¥ att jag aldrig hade visat er bilder frÃ¥n den hÃ¤r â†“ fotograferingen, som jag gjorde i april! Riktigt varfÃ¶r de aldrig kom upp hÃ¤r, kommer jag ej ihÃ¥g, men better late than never eller? ;) Redigerade min favorit av tusentals bilder och fick idÃ©en om att testa med ett citat ocksÃ¥. Kolla sÃ¥ fint det blev! â™¥ TÃ¤nkte det kunde vara roligt att se fÃ¶re-bilden ocksÃ¥? Har ju Ã¤ndrat ganska mycket :)
//T R A N S L A T I O N; Yesterday I realized that I actually never showed you guys pictures from this â†“ shoot. I don’t really know why, but better late than never, right? ;) I edited one of my favorites out of thousands and got the idea of adding a quote on it as well, look how beautiful everything turned out to be?! â™¥ Was thinking of showing you guys a before-picture as well, after all I changed quite a lot from colors to background :) xoxo