Quotes, Selfportraits

Home

________ 2016-07-10 ________

I want to go home,
but home is the mouth of a shark
home is the barrel of the gun
and no one would leave home
unless home chased you to the shore
unless home told you
to quicken your legs
leave your clothes behind
crawl through the desert
wade through the oceans
drown
save
be hunger
beg
forget pride

no one leaves home
until home is a sweaty
voice in your ear
saying-
LEAVE. I CANT SAVE YOU.


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Quotes, Mix

Brown girl

________ 2016-05-23 ________

Brown girl, brown girl
why do you look so sad?
I live with the fact that
I could’ve been the son
my parents never had.


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Quotes, Selfportraits

Gender roles

________ 2016-05-18 ________

I grew up in the Pakistani culture
where historical role models were a man who wrote songs and poems
and women who fought with a gun and lead freedom fighters.
Your gender roles mean nothing to me


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Quotes, Selfportraits

I was a student, once

________ 2016-05-10 ________


I was a student, once.
I graduated from a prestigious university and shook hands with its founder when I received my diploma.
Now my hands grasp at others’ unwanted clothes.
I was a teacher, before.
I taught English to Syria’s brightest and used up the electricity marking books late into the night.
Now strangers speak to me slowly, like a baby, asking “Do”¦you”¦understand?”
I was a woman, long ago.
I wore make up, I went shopping with friends in Damascus.
I brushed my black hair before a dressing table mirror.
Now I wash with wet wipes.
& queue to use portable toilets filled hourly by thousands of ill and unwashed strangers.
I was a wife.
Ahmad brought me bracelets from the market on his way home from work.
He got grumpy when I woke him in the morning but smiled when he heard me singing.
He hugged our children,
And kissed me before he left, as he always does.
As he always did.
Now I tell my name to the English girl before me and shake my head when she asks for my husband’s.
She nods and tries to look understanding. But what can she understand?
This girl, barely more than a teenager,
Never having known war, never having loved, never having had to run from chaos to strife, never having lost?
What can she know?
But then I remember, and I forgive.
For I was her, once.


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Quotes

Pavana

________ 2016-04-16 ________


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Quotes, Nature

Morning

________ 2016-04-06 ________

I don’t pay attention to the
world ending.
It has ended for me
many times
and began again in the morning.


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Quotes

020416

________ 2016-04-02 ________


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Quotes, Selfportraits

It’s like this

________ 2016-02-28 ________

My country was ravaged and savaged
by people who look just like you.
my grandparents were alive for our Independence Day.
and you say: “the past is the past, forgive and forget.”
and you say: “9/11: never forget.”


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Quotes, Selfportraits

Oppress

________ 2016-02-12 ________

They destroy your country,
and then shame you for trying to escape their disaster.
This is how to oppress.


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Everdaylife, Quotes

100216

________ 2016-02-10 ________

Wassup?! Idag är det onsdag och jag har spenderat måndag och tisdag med att göra absolut ingenting. Det var så jäkla skönt då jag hade jobb från 5-11 idag och kommer att ha det hela veckan ut. Försöker få in det sista av psykologin även om tentan är om en månad (hej säger little miss klar i förväg). Försöker fortfarande enas med mig själv om vad jag ska unna mig själv när jag får min fetelön. Åh vill ha så mycket men ska spara till körkortet det här året, det var EN av mina många löften haha!

Hoppas ni alla hade en bra onsdag och kan sova gott inatt. Jag ska stänga shoppen imorgon så kommer ej vara så aktiv då heller men äeh, ibland behövs man åt andra håll :p Annars var jag precis på Maxi och hämtade ut mitt nya BATTERIGREPP! Ska visa er bilder och allt snarast, love

//T R A N S L A T I O N; Wassup?! Today it’s Wednesday and I spent my Monday & Tuesday doing absolutely NOTHING. I really needed that trust me. I got ill last week and it was so hard to get well with work all days + uni, so it wasn’t more than right to get a ittybitty break in between :⁆ Trying to get the last of psychology in my head as well for my exam in March and figuring out if I should buy myself a birthdaygift or not. And IF yes, then a lightbox orrrrr….. a new dress from Yourdesignerwear?! I want so much but promised myself to save up for my driving licence (IA) buhu.

I hope you all had a good day! I have work tomorrow as well and I’m closing the shop again & again, so I won’t be active here rest of the week. Other than that I was just on our local post office and grabbed my new BATTERYGRIP!! Ohmygod, so happy and I can’t wait to show you guys pictures of it! Love


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